Well...here goes

Well, this is my first blog post, the start of some inane rambling by a completely befuddled woman :( I am, at present, trying desperately to find a hobby that relaxes me and can hold my interest, which seems to be extremely difficult as my mind wanders constantly and I find concentration difficult. If only someone could tell me what was wrong with me then maybe I could set up some coping mechanisms and regain some normality. In the last 4 years I have seen a definite decline in my health, and my body and mind seem to be finally crumbling under the strain of a life of cr** ~ with the only total positive things being my 4 children whom I love unconditionally and live completely for (to such an extent that I have become lost in the role of mother, there is no 'ME' anymore, I totally function to keep life right for them)